" This Was Not Meant To Be "
I�ve been loving you all this time -- now I'm in fear
You must make your stand and tell me how you feel
I'm wondering for the last time about you and me
'cause it seems darling...this was not meant to be

You've given me enough reasons to believe it's true
that all meaning in the world is only about me and you
but you push me aside each time I'm in your heart
so I have nothing else to do but to make a new start

Something tells me deep inside to still believe in fate
but the real world between our eyes tells me it's too late
so now I'm hoping that you as my friend will also see
that after all I've wished...this was not meant to be

Down the road I'll ask myself how come I didn't say
that all this time I've been loving you more each day
I'll always wonder if you ever felt for me the same
or maybe I did good by not being a part of your game

If I can do this right, you will always be my friend
and to our hugs and kisses I will now put an end
I will promise you baby that if you let go of me
you will also understand...this was not meant to be

The day is almost over and it's time to let you go
I'm sure I'll dream of you though you will never know
my life will turn away from yours starting tomorrow
and no words will ever reveal to you my real sorrow

I'm feeling tired and my eyes keep falling asleep
I'm pulling out all the feelings that hurt me down deep
only God will know that I'll be praying to believe
that I'm wrong to think...this was not meant to be

"For every first "hello" there is a last "goodbye"

Promise me when our time together has ended,
the tears, broken hearts and sorrows have mended
When we say our last goodbyes
and there are no more tears left to cry
Promise me that you will keep our memory alive
for someone new might soon arrive
For parting is the price we must pay
we loved each other and now go our separate ways
I fell something missing when you walked away alone
that night I sat waiting by the phone
But you won't be calling there's no more you
what we had is gone no longer shared by two
The spark is out, the fire distinguished and gone
the love isn't personal it's for whomever comes along

But please promise me now while we are on neutral ground
that you will dwell on our memory when the mood comes around
For I am strong and I am tough and I promise not to cry......
Because I know...
For every first "Hello" there is a last "Goodbye".

One Special Moment

So many things occupy my time during the day;
But there is always that special moment, when
Everything else in set aside, I close my eyes and think of you.
That one special moment and I find contentment, even fulfillment,
And though your touch is far from me, your warmth consumes me
In that very special moment.
Oh, I never have you out of thought or mind, for
Bright shiny days, couples gazing into each others eyes,
Soft drops of rain against my face, a romantic song,
A seagull swooping towards the ocean, the quietness of the night,
A sad movie or a child�s laughter; these and so much more
Are like wings that carry you back to me.
But, that one very special moment is a time only you and I share;
Because, with all my heart, I truly believe each day...
In that one special moment... you are there.

58 Park Road

That road which once I walked in springtime
is darkened by winter now
The old grey homes that spoke of a life much
yearned for are but gravestones - all mine
Grass once so green
has now faded with hope and the sun
And trees which rose effortlessly and endlessly seem
burdened by the cold rain and their lack of purpose
An overture of gravel, a red door creaking,
a familiar smell, a familiar hell
Oh how I will mourn you, yet you will go on living
Much worse, as though for you it were just a dream